The Energetic Effects of Releasing Fear | Episode 129: Check in with Syd
When your body has a physical reaction to something and you can’t logically explain it, there may be something deeper happening within you.
In this episode of the Carrying Connected Conversations podcast, Syd is sharing her recent experience through an energetic release of fear. As she moved through triggering conversation around lack, Syd’s fear spiralled into the biggest physical reaction she’s experienced in a long time. Co-host Ang has all the questions to better understand why Syd experienced this release, how it affected her energetically and physically, and what she is learning from it. Don’t be fooled here, Syd’s experience isn’t a rare unicorn type experience, as there is a good chance you’ve experienced your own energetic release.
Listen to the episode to hear Syd’s thoughts on the energetic effects of releasing fear and how we can be affected physically by fear.
You can continue reading about the conversation Syd & Ang had on the podcast through the transcript below.
Ang: Hello and welcome back to another episode of Carrying Connected Conversations. This is Angie chatting at you. I am so excited to be here because last week and this week are both our check ins. Last week was all about me and this week is going to be all about Sydney. I am so excited to dive into the topic she wants to share today. It’s all about the energetic effects of releasing fear. Oh my goodness, I already have so many thoughts and I have my own experiences that I believe Sydney will be sharing. The only way we will know is when we dive into it. Before we do, let’s go ahead and introduce Sydney.
Syd, how are you doing?
Syd: Hello! I am doing really good. I am, well it’s kind of a nice relaxing morning and I always love hopping on and chatting with you, so I am in all the good feels right now. I am ready to share this experience that I had.
Ang: Yay! I love it. Okay, so your experience in releasing the fear from what I am understanding was a very physical experience you had released. It drained you, so talk me through this. What happened?
Syd: Ya. It was really intense. I’ve had situations where I’ve energetically felt really drained because of, whether I’ve taken on energy from my environment or I’ve been in a release process in my healing journey. I’ve had really intense situations like this before, but this one I hadn’t had in awhile. If I think back on this past year and everything that I have moved through, especially in the first check in we shared, for myself I was talking about slowing down and connecting with my higher self. So, it’s been awhile since I’ve had a release that’s been this physical. It happened almost a month ago and I was triggered by a conversation about money. Last month I shared about shifting my perspective of lack into abundance. So this fear of lack is definitely something that has been passed down to me generationally. I hope it’s a fear that maybe one I won’t have again, but my understanding of fear is that they don’t just go away. We simply find a way to not let them control us as much.
Ang: Agreed.
Syd: For me, the fear of lack was triggered and all of a sudden I went into a deep spiral of feeling so overwhelmed and my thoughts were spinning. I knew that I needed to do a release meditation, so I laid down on my couch and put on a meditation to do a release. My legs couldn’t stop shaking the entire time I was in meditation. The only way for me to stop my legs from shaking would be to tense up my muscles and try to force myself to stop shaking. I took it as my body is really needing to release this energy.
I read somewhere afterwards, so now I understand it more, that when we are in the state of fear which I already knew, it triggers the fight, flight, fawn or freeze modes within us. The fight or flight response, what it does is it actually tells our muscles to gain this excess strength to sprint and run as fast as we can away from whatever it is we are fearing. Looking back on the release I was going through I think that is what my legs were doing. My legs had so much excess strength that they were needing to expel the energy, but I didn’t know that at the time.
I did one meditation and it did nothing. Well, it did a little bit but I still wasn’t calm. Usually I can do a meditation and I become calm and zen and I am in a space where I shifted the energy. I had to do another meditation immediately after and I felt a little better, but was still not good. So then I thought I needed a bath and it would help cleanse my energy. I had a hot bath and felt a little bit better. I don’t know if you’ve ever experienced this, but when I got out of the hot tub I felt so tired and as if I didn’t have any energy. It was probably 9 o’clock at night and I crashed into my bed. I laid there and I thought I would fall asleep, where I maybe slept the entire night about an hour. The entire night I was wide awake and my mind was spinning. I couldn’t stop my mind from spinning. I was sweating profusely. It was insane.
The next morning I woke up and I couldn’t eat breakfast. I took one bite of my breakfast, and it wasn’t as if I was nauseous. I just knew that eating wasn’t going to work for me. I had to take the morning off and crawl back into bed. I had to give myself the grace to relax.
That is kind of what I went through.
Ang: Oh my gosh! That is so intense! Okay I need some clarification on some things. You kept talking about thoughts and how the thoughts were racing through you. In previous conversations we’ve had we talked about this idea that thoughts become feelings, feelings become actions and actions become results. The results go back into the thought pattern. Thinking of that cyclical effect, what actions were you doing when you started to notice the thoughts were coming? What were the thoughts that were coming forward and when did you start noticing them?
Syd: It all really stems, like I said, from that fear of lack and not having enough money. As I was saying, I was triggered by money because in a conversation money came up. At that time I was preparing to leave my house for two months because I was going to go cat sit for some friends and then I would spend the holidays with my parents. I was not going to be back at my home until the new year. Knowing that I had a two day drive to get to where I was going, then I would be in an environment that is a very touristy destination. So prices are typically higher. Then looking at the amount in my bank account I was freaking out. It was this “how am I going to make life work?”. Really my fear of lack never really is that I am lacking in this present moment. I always have enough money in this present moment, but it’s always the fear of the future. What if I use all of this money and then I don’t have money for that? The fear of not having more, whereas I knew spiritually that energy is always moving. Lack is not true, but in my mind because the fear can become so strong, my thoughts are so focused on how will I have the money to pay for things. Where will I get the money from? You know how thoughts are, they start spinning on the hamster wheel and I become all consumed with this one concept of lack.
Ang: That totally makes sense. That just proves how this cyclical effect is so apparent in all of our lives in anything that we do, think, or say. You were physically looking at your bank account then all of a sudden the thoughts started coming, then the feeling showed up in your body. The experience you had to go through, like the shaking of the legs, must’ve been “what is going on?”. I would’ve been beside myself if that was happening because there is no logical explanation. Other than what we are talking about right now, which is not even logical, it’s something that you feel. It’s trying to explain the feeling using the logic side of it, if that makes sense.
Syd: Ya exactly. That is exactly it. It’s something like I said, I’ve experienced this energetic release before and I’ve also experienced what some people call a psychic attack. You could use that term for it, but really what it means is in energetic attack. You’ve been energetically attacked by someone else’s energy whether they did it intentionally or not. The word triggering is another way to describe it.
As an empath I am so open, and my aura is open and inviting, that I am constantly taking on the energy of everyone around me. The conversation I had around money, maybe the person I was conversing with, maybe they were worried about money. That energy, or maybe they felt overwhelmed, and that energy triggered my own worries and overwhelm. There are so many different ways that we can feel those effects. From my experience, people that are not in a spiritual conversation and don’t understand energy in the way that we easily talk about… for instance, the next day, I live with a family member, and this family member had said to me after I had started to get better. So that evening, they had said, “I wonder what had made you sick, that’s so weird”. I had to just brush it off, “ya totally weird”. Mainly because I thought I didn’t need to get into it to explain my woo-woo and what other people would think was crazy.
I knew that it wasn’t because I caught a bug, or had the flu, or really because anything physical even though it resulted in a physical experience. It was everything energetic and it was literally my body resisting the energy of my thoughts. My body resisting the energy of my fears. It’s in moments like that where I have such a deep dive into fear and I feel that, whether emotional pain, mental or physical pain, I feel the energetic heaviness. It’s those moments where I always think, “Sydney, there is a better way, you don’t have to let fear control you”.
The next morning when I woke up and I couldn’t eat breakfast, I thought, “okay, I’m still in the middle of this release”. The crazy thing is, because I told you at the beginning that my fear of lack is generational and it is something that has been passed down to me in my family line. I spoke to my parents that next day, and both my mom and my dad couldn’t sleep the same night I couldn’t sleep. They had the worst sleep they’ve had in the longest time, which is totally not normal for them. My mom can wake up in the middle of the night sometimes and have a bad sleep. She told my dad that she had a bad sleep and he said the same for him, his mind was spinning the whole time. As soon as she told me that I understood that my release, the work I am doing is working at a generational level.
Ang: Ya it transcended.
Syd: Exactly. I am not just releasing my energy, but I am in the process and they are feeling the effects of it. Positive. Even though that was a negative effect, they will receive the positive as I continue to do this work.
Ang: That is crazy to think about! I have almost no words. When you are talking about this it makes me wonder if I have been through something similar. I want to say yes. When you are talking about not being able to stop shaking at night, not being able to sleep, and it’s all because of something that happened. A simple conversation and checking in to that bank account, all these thoughts are being provoked. The fear is trying to release itself in such a way. I remember there was this time in my past and you will remember this. Remember the rash I had.
Syd: Oh ya.
Ang: Okay, when I was going over the notes before our conversation today, I thought, “oh my god, this makes so much sense where this release of fear was coming from”. At the time I was going through a very emotionally and psychologically damaging time in my relationship and that is when the rash presented itself. It’s almost as if it was a release, my thoughts were trying to get out of my body in a physical way, kind of like how your legs were reacting. Thoughts, feelings, actions, results. It’s all continual. It makes sense why there was no logical explanation for this rash, because I still don’t know. Now it makes sense because what I was experiencing at the time was trying to let go of the fear I was carrying. Wow! This is crazy!
Okay, so talk to me about other times where you’ve felt this. I know the leg shaking, but was it similar in other situations where you were trying to release fear? Or did it show up differently?
Syd: No, I’ve never had my legs shaking like that before.
Ang: Okay.
Syd: Which is why it kind of freaked me out because I didn’t know why my legs couldn’t settle. Literally the only way for them to settle was for me to clench my muscles and stiff board my body. If I had just relaxed and let my body relax, my legs were flutter kicking as if I was in the water. They were going strong.
Other things I have experienced before, it’s interesting because when you brought up your rash it made me think. I think I’ve shared about this topic before on the podcast and I always like to preface it that it might be TMI, especially if men are listening. At the same time it’s a conversation we need to talk more about because half of the population experiences this every single month and that’s our menstrual cycle.
For myself, I had really really bad menstrual cycles every single month. It was one day out of my cycle I would be dead to the world. I would have the worst cramps, I would feel feverish. I remember one time years ago I was living with a friend and she saw me, I was lying on the bathroom floor on the tiles because they were cool. I got up and she looked at me and said, “you look like a ghost”. My face was grey. I would get that sick. Now my cycles are totally fine.
I had a lot of people in my life saying I should go see a doctor and maybe there was something deeper and I needed to get it looked at. I always intuitively knew that there was nothing wrong with me physically. I always intuitively knew that it was nothing that a pill could fix. If I were to take something it would be masking the problem. It would be like putting a bandaid over the problem. Which is why I think holistic medicine is really important because it looks at the root of the issue, which could be emotional or mental. It could be your energy or belief system that is showing up in a physical response.
For myself this past year, a lot of the healing I’ve done is in embracing my feminine energy and trusting my intuition. I’ve been on the journey of trusting my intuition for a long time, but I always carried self doubt and had self esteem issues. This year really connected with my Higher Self has allowed me to overcome the self esteem issues and self doubt and I’ve stepped into a space of worthiness. I can see that the growth, the healing and learning that I’ve done, has now resulted in my menstrual cycle being so much calmer, more natural, and there is so much more peace throughout that experience. All because it was my feminine energy that was blocked and it was extremely wounded. I really healed that energy and now I am coming from a more divine space, so I can feel that energetic effect it has on me physically now.
Ang: That is so amazing that we are talking about this. Let’s be real, how many people out there, especially our listeners, are thinking “something is wrong with me, something is wrong with me, I need to fix this, I need to do something”. When all it is is coming from within, connecting to ourselves. Because we have lived and we are living in such a disconnected society, like you said earlier you didn’t want to bring up your woo-wooness so people wouldn’t think you are crazy. That’s the problem. We always think it’s something outside of us that we are putting into our body, when it’s just us, it’s our energy and who we are in how we are being.
For those that have experienced something similar, something physically in your body that you couldn’t pinpoint what was wrong, it was probably because it was an energetic release. Us talking about the effects, more specifically you Syd because this topic is all about you, it made me think back in my day. Which makes me believe there are so many people out there that are also experiencing similar things that don’t know how to explain it. It’s a matter of tapping back into ourselves, coming within, and as you are saying, literally healing your feminine is what helped you with your menstrual cycles. It’s so important to be talking about these things because it’s so easily overlooked.
Syd: Exactly. I think that we live in a society for a long time that has been so focused on the external environment. This really creates the victim mindset, which we’ve talked about before. As empaths I think the most important thing we need to learn is understanding our own energy. Understanding our own energy, our own emotions, and stop putting the blame on everything outside of us. Taking ownership for our own energy and learning the tools, strategies and practices to guide yourself from a peaceful energy. If you are feeling overwhelmed, knowing how to guide yourself back into a peaceful energy, not ignoring, denying or avoiding. That is how the heavy energy builds up within our body and then it results in a physical illness.
Ang: And stays. It stays with them.
Syd: Exactly. Exactly.
Ang: Oh my goodness. Wow! Well this was absolutely amazing that we spoke about it because it’s definitely something that is happening quite often, but we don’t look at it from this perspective. That is why we are here to have these conversations. We are here to dive deep into what we are currently experiencing and how we’ve experienced it, but also what we’ve learned from it. Like you said you’ve completely grown from this situation.
Syd: Ya! As we close off here, a reminder for everyone who is listening, if I wasn’t already working on my perspective on abundance, go back and listen to the check in episode 125. If I wasn’t already working on that then this energetic release that I went through I wouldn’t have experienced it in the way I did. Today I can look back on this release that I went through and I can have a lot of gratitude for it because I can see it as the by-product of what I am working through and what I am healing through. My body says, “wow, mentally you are understanding abundance so much better, spiritually you are understanding abundance so much more, now physically we need to make sure we clear the pipes. We get rid of all the clutter that has built up over the generations and we clear it out so you are starting from a fresh energy”. In the month since I experienced that release, no fear has popped up within me. No thoughts of worry, of doubt, of fearing lack. It was truly what I needed to shift my energy into this next cycle that I am moving through.
Ang: I love that. It also goes to show that healing through anything is not linear. Just because you think you’ve moved through something does not mean it’s not going to come back later. It may come back later and this is the perfect reminder of that.
Syd: Yes.
Ang: It’s okay that it comes back, but it also shows yourself that you really are taking initiative in trying to learn and grow from it, and trying to embody. That is the most important piece to embody what we’ve learned so we can grow, that way the feeling doesn’t come back ever again.
Syd: Exactly! I love it.
Ang: Yay! Well what a great conversation today Syd. I am so happy you were able and willing to speak about this energetic release because it was some very interesting things you’ve gone through. I am curious to know from our listeners, have you guys ever experienced anything similar to either Syd’s or my story. Where there is something physically happening in you that you can’t explain? If so, then give us that rating button, 5 star because we are awesome and so are you.
From now until next week, we are going to love you and leave you. Don’t forget we have our expert chats coming up for the next two episodes. Bye everyone!
Syd: Bye!