Mental Breakdowns and the Lessons Learned

Mental breakdowns have a huge affect on us mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. Every persons mental breakdown can be different in many ways, and each one will have a lesson within that is specific for that particular person. Yes, mental breakdowns happen for us to learn something important, and they usually happen because we have been blind to the lesson in front of us. Usually, our only way to learn this specific lesson, is to be pushed to the point of a breakdown. I believe it is the universe (God, Higher Power, or whatever you believe in) trying to get our attention when we are wearing a blindfold to the obvious. The only way for us to understand is to go through this difficult moment in order to finally realize the importance of the lesson.

“You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending.”

— C.S. Lewis

Nobody wants to go through a mental breakdown, you don’t look at one and say ‘hey that looks like fun, can I have turn?’. If we were in a position to learn the lesson then we wouldn’t experience the breakdown. It is those moments that we follow our ego, when our spirit is telling us something different. We quite literally need to be shaken awake in order to see the light.

In my story, I allowed so many things take over my life, and constantly thought of the future and how I wanted to live when I got there. The problem was that I didn’t know when the future would become the present, and so I would never change my ways to live the life I so desperately wanted. Stress took over, the drama of others quickly settled in, my own insecurities were highlighted when other people told me who I should be and what thoughts or opinions I was allowed to have. I kept making excuses as to why I should continue to live that way, including, but not limited to, contracts having been signed, relationships that were in the middle of all this chaos, and wanting to please others. I secluded myself in my own little world in hopes that it would get me through, not get me out, but allow me to push through to the other side. I constantly tried to push my emotions, worries, and doubts out of the way; I didn’t want to be negative, so I forced myself to find the positive; in the end all of this only masked all the problems, all my problems.

Months of not feeling good enough, feeling manipulated to be someone I was not, and feeling blindly lead to lower my own standards pushed me to the point of a mental breakdown.

“You are not weak for needing time to sort through this.”

— unknown

I have spent the past year trying to heal all my emotional and spiritual wounds that were created, without my knowledge, over years of not being spiritually true to myself. I was reawakened to my self-healing journey and I will continue on this journey for the rest of my life.

Now that time has passed and I have become open to the lessons in front of me, I have been able to grow to become a better version of myself. Through this healing process I have learnt several important lessons: rather than focusing only on planning for the future to enjoy living in the present; to create my own opinions and standards, which may grow and change over time, but they are my own; to put myself first, no matter what, this is my life and I should live it for me; to create a community of like-minded people to surround myself with; and to constantly protect myself from the negative energies (drama, stress, etc.) of others. My list of lessons from this moment of my life will continue to grow, and I will become better because of it.

I am now at a point where I can look back and thank the universe for my mental breakdown. I am better because of it.

This is when I ask you, have you had a mental breakdown in your life? Have you been able to learn the lessons from it? Are you on the journey of self-healing? Can you look back and be grateful for your mental breakdown? If you ask yourself these questions and are now open to healing from your past then please, join me on the journey of self-healing.

“The only thing I am committed to right now is bettering myself.”

— unknown

4 years after my mental breakdown I’m recognizing the healing and growth I’ve accomplished. I’ve led myself through a lot of releasing, for I carried a lot of bottled up emotions, pain, fears, and anxiety. Everything I’ve learnt about releasing fears, blocks, pains and energetic resistance is in one of my spiritual ebooks. I wanted to create a tool that you could use in your healing process.