Healing My Relationship with Receiving | Soul Healing Journey Entry 11
My Higher Self is really wanting me to focus on my vibrational frequency on a moment to moment basis.
I have mastered my ability to recognize when my environment triggers me or when someone else’s emotions have attached onto my energy. I have mastered my ability to transmute the energy in my body into an energy of a higher vibration. There are so many life lessons I’ve moved through as an empath and a people pleaser that I’ve turned into soul wisdom because I embody the lessons, not just carry the information.
I am in a phase of life where my Higher Self says “your frequency is the most important thing”. There are 3 main factors that I am being asked to focus on right now.
1 being of service
2 carrying unconditional self-love
3 allowing myself to receive
In each of these aspects I can hold a frequency that attracts goodness and blessings, or I can feel pressured, forced, doubtful and resistant.
To flow with life and the Universal Plan for me, is to show up in my current experience and ask myself, “how can I carry a frequency of energy that feels good right now?”.
I can easily catch my mind focused on the future, thinking about all that I desire, all that I don’t currently have, and all the doubt or worry around how I may never reach what I desire. I hear the Taylor Swift song start up in my head, “come back… be here” because my Spirit wants to remind my mind to come back and focus on the present.
Right now I am acknowledging my ability to step out of the shoes of control and truly hand the reins over to my Divine Team. It has to be a daily choice that I make in order to come back and focus on being here in this moment. This is how I lead myself into a frequency that feels good, a frequency that attracts all that is meant for me in this lifetime.
Speaking with my Divine Team out loud, in my head, or through the written word is an important way for me to connect with my Higher Self and the Universe. This is the moment I open myself to receive clarity, support, guidance and love.
“I call in my Divine Team, my Angels and Ancestors, my Spirit Guides and Animal Guides, please come to me now. I trust that you are guiding me down my path and all is unfolding for my highest good. I know my desires are meant for me because I desire them. I know when I focus on being of service I am living out my purpose. I have felt the peaceful nature of living in connection with Spirit and I know it’s my purpose to support and guide others to their connection. I know I easily doubt myself and my abilities and that comes from generations of women believing they are not good enough and women shunning other women who choose to live differently. In my ability to offer unconditional love to myself I am choosing to overcome generations of pain. I know I am worthy of financial stability, being in a loving romantic relationship, working with souls who desire support in their healing & growth, and experiencing fun adventures through life. I am worthy of good times, love, laughter, and having all of my needs met. I am worthy of receiving. I allow myself to receive.
I ask my Divine Team to help me heal the parts of me that resist receiving. I can see a tendency I carry that shuts down when I receive something good, I end up sabotaging myself with doubt, worry and fear. The Universe is trying to send me blessings and the moment they begin to flow in, I set up a brick wall and block my ability to receive them. I think this stems from generations of women being told they aren’t good enough, and especially the women in my line of work being shunned from the community. I want to receive. I want to allow myself to receive blessings. I know deep within my Spirit that when I receive it means that I have more to offer my clients and community members, and when they receive the Universe expands and grows. This is what I am working on. This is where I ask for assistance. Please help me receive. Please help me be of service. Please help me carry unconditional love for myself.”
Through this reflection I can more clearly see where I am healing during this phase of life. I am committed to myself and healing the energy I carry around receiving. Every single day I am going to choose to acknowledge all that I have received and I am going to allow myself to sit with the energy of receiving.
Right now there is an uncomfortability that I carry around receiving and this feeling ends up triggering fear. Once fear is triggered I fall into old patterns of doubt and worry which blocks me from receiving. I see the pattern a little more clearly now. Through awareness and acknowledgement I am on the path to healing.
It’s time for me to create a new belief system around receiving.
It’s time for me to release the stagnant energy tied to fear around receiving.
It’s time for me to become friends with the act of receiving.
“It’s time for me to remember that when I receive, the Universe receives and that is what’s needed for spiritual expansion. ”
I am part of the Universe and I want the Universe to receive more goodness so everyone can up-level. This means that when I receive, the Universe is receiving which allows the up-level to take place. Oooooo. I am learning. I am rewriting this belief system. I am rewiring these old outdated behaviours of resistance.
Going into a past life, I see a vision that I know my soul lived through. She was considered a witch in her days and every time she received a new client to work with and help heal, she received more backlash, disruption, and shame. This version of me was comfortable with who she was, except she carried trauma for the pain she caused her clients because of the backlash attributed to her, her work and her lifestyle. She created a belief that her healing work ended up doing more harm than good because her clients wouldn’t feel safe in coming to her for help. Not because she wasn’t safe, but instead because the path that led to her home wasn’t safe. A lot of clients would come for their initial appointment and then would never return again. Some of those brave enough to come back would be murdered on the pathway to her house, shunned by their family forever, or unable to show their faces in public. This version of me carried the pain of each woman she worked with, she carried the guilt, she carried the fear these women lived with for the rest of their lives.
It is time for me to go back and heal these wounds from this past life of my soul. It’s time for me to see how the Universe has expanded and grown from those days. It’s time for me to trust my journey here and to no longer let old fear and pain dictate how I show up in the world. The future gets to be something different than the past, something better. That is what I am working towards. When I receive more clients they get to feel supported and safe like never before. I create that space for them to feel seen, heard and loved. The Universe is leading me in a direction that creates expansion for all of us and the only way for me to walk my soul path and live out my purpose, is to heal my relationship with receiving.
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This is a journal entry of mine where I took the time to acknowledge thought patterns that left me feeling unworthy. In this process I was able to connect with the universe, by calling on my Divine Team and asking for help. I opened my intuitive channel to receive messages in order to understand where my block around receiving came from. It’s not often I receive information from a past-life, but it does happen sometimes. In this particular moment I received the message via my clairvoyant, clairaudient and claircognizant abilities. Now that I know where the block originates I am committed to changing the old thought pattern into a healthy and supportive thought pattern.
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Until next time, sending love & light on your spiritual journey,
Sydney Smith
Founder of Adventuring with Poseidon Wellness
